Leaving this world behind
25 years.... In the span of the world, it's a fucking blip. In the world of a fly, it's forever. In the span of a lifetime....it's about 1/3 of your life. And that is how long I've spent, more or less, at the same place. When I look at other people in my sphere, it's mamoth-time. I guess that sums me up...or does it?
I always enjoyed my job...to the extent where you can. Sure, there were some ups and downs, but I had my friends and colleagues there and it made it all worth while. But even an old bull has to find the way and realize that the old words "sink or swim" are the words you have to abide by, and let me tell you, I can abide. Why I used the phrase "I had my friends (job related) is because I'm gonna start swimming. About a week ago I got the nod to study and, with lack of a better word, reinvent myself. Hence I am taking a leave of ascense to study for 3 years. That might not be a daunting task for a 22 year old...but I'm your non ordinary 22 year old....who's 40+. Right now I am looking at the unknown and my concervative self is....not sure. Don't get me wrong, I am sure that THIS is what I want to do, but my protective side is feeling doubt because I'm leave friends behind in a non that stellar situation and I always felt that I could shelter them from said situation. But there comes a time when you have to look out for yourself and for me, that time is now. I feel very confident when it comes to the studying part, at least for now, because I beat 75% of test takers in math and 95% in language (swedish/english) and I really enjoyed studing for that test, however funny that may seem. With that said, reach out and touch faith but right now in this writing moment, time is slipping away from me, but I guess that's just what life is....unless you do something abou it. Your roll, dude.